How did this happen? Didn't I just bring her home? Didn't I just take her to her two week doctor's appointment? Didn't she just have her first bath? When did my baby turn into a toddler right before my eyes? Everyone tells you not to blink, but it's just UNREAL how fast time passes once you have a baby. It's true that the days are long, but the years are so painfully short.
When we brought Olivia home, I had some postpartum depression. I was usually okay during the day, but at night I would spiral. I was very doom and gloom. "I'll never be able to ride in Gil's convertible again because it's a two-seater.", "I'll never be able to go get late night tacos with my friends.", "I'll never be able to be away from her because I'm breastfeeding." and I would cry. It really felt like we would never find our new normal. But here we are! With a little help from Zoloft and a lot of practice, I’m proud of the mom I’ve become. I still mess up and get frustrate, I still have mom guilt and I fail her every day, but I love Olivia more than life itself.